The Soundtrack of My Life

don’t be afraid, Cecilia, I’m the satellite

…and you’re the sky

I just love Andrew McMahon. I can’t really think of many songs of his that I don’t like, and plenty that I love straight down to my core: Konstantine, Hammers and Strings, Last Straw, Walking By, Amelia Jean. The list goes on and on, from Something Corporate through to Jack’s Mannequin and now on to this new venture, Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness. Their first song, Cecilia and the Satellite, makes me tear up every time I hear it. And then I want to listen to it over and over and over.

It’s funny: Something Corporate was part of the first wave of my indie experience. My friend Brittany introduced me to them in seventh or eighth grade. I remember I listened to the entire North album on repeat when my best friend went to Switzerland for a semester abroad (in junior high, what?!). I was delightfully shocked when I heard If U C Jordan for the first time. I sang along to As You Sleep and Only Ashes with my theatre friend Andrew, on the black and deserted highway between towns, absurdly pleased when he said he enjoyed singing with me. The first time I heard Konstantine, it was through an angsty blog post of an ex-boyfriend (that guy had serious lady issues).

And then came the lighter, but somehow deeper, Jack’s Mannequin. The frisson of excitement over the JFK line in Last Straw. The desperate edge of Bruised as I drove home for the weekend during that first disastrous summer in Lethbridge. Listening to their last album in the car with Bryan and being underwhelmed, then falling in slow, tantalizing love with songs like Amy, I and Restless Dream.

Andrew McMahon has been there for the past 13 years of my life. I feel like we’ve been through a lot together. Seeing him live in concert two years ago was one of the highlights of my life. He’s insanely talented, and his lyrics really pierce to the heart of things. I was so excited for the new album to release, and while I am not overwhelmed, I am waiting for another slow and tantalizing fall.

And now I’m going to go listen to that song again.

The Soundtrack of My Life